If you haven't been following along with our family blog (http://markandamyjohnson.blogspot.com), Mark was recently diagnosed after a very long 8 months of searching for answers with Behavioral Variant Frontotemporal Dementia. In very great summary, this means he has between 2-10 years left to live. To LIVE. But he's already at such a diminished capacity to live that he will not travel again most likely.
I am completely exhausted after so much time searching for these answers, and also from the emotional blow of the reality of it all, and well...I desperately need a break from life right now. I very recently booked a 3 night getaway just for myself, and I'm so giddily excited about it! So...stay tuned for more details as I go along. Part of me wants to bundle it all up for myself and tell no one, and the other part of me wants to shout it from the mountaintops.
I just need a little solace. This will be the first vacation I have planned that I do not intend to do any real scheduling or advance planning. I don't want to book excursions or buy tickets to museums or gardens or anything like that. I just want to sit and relax and enjoy some peace and quiet, and I have been assured that the place I am going will be perfect for that.
I'm a little nervous, if I'm being honest. Not because traveling alone scares me: I've done a fair amount of it, really. But because I've never been so selfish in my life. I spent a LOT of money, and I'm going somewhere on my bucket list, and I'm leaving EVERYTHING behind for this trip. It feels indulgent. But I think after everything I've been through the past two years, I need a little indulgence. The Lord has led me to this place, and I'm excited to spend some time alone with him in this place.
